Poison Apples

1234 United States Marine Corps!!

Gina — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 22:29:30 +0000

Well I am back for a few minutes I suppose, I have had quite the experience living on the MCB and I have to say I really love the way they try to make us feel welcome and help the other families from different states feel at home when some are as far away as Ny or Maine. My husbands command on the other hand is something I don’t want to deal with ever, I think they are the most unorganized people I have ever met a I hope they get it together soon.

Otherwise it’s been fun and I am looking forward to seeing what life on an Army base will be like, my husband is planning on going into the US ARMY soon his EAS isn’t til July of 2011 but they can enlist six months before they separate from the Corps. I am on board for what ever he wants to do, I am not looking forward to the Army’s longer deployments and stop loss policy, which as I am sure you know means they can be told they are coming home even get back to their base and be put on a plane that same day and be sent right back into the same shit storm they just got out of for another deployment. So that will be stupid… Otherwise my kids are so big and Ivy turns 7 this month I can’t fricken believe that.. Lily will be 10 in February which really isn’t that far off if I think about it. I finally got a computer and my lap top should be here soon from school, I have always wanted one of those. I should be done with the first portion of my school by December and then I have another year left til I’m completely finished and back in the work force which will be good to start a new career I like to work out side the home even if it’s just part time, just to get away and have a life for a while. Well that’s enough of my pointless post.. Thank you for reading!

Sooooooo

Gina — Sat, 20 Feb 2010 22:49:51 +0000

I’m back.. I love the band Muse.. They are playing as we read and write..

Tonight we are having a party and my good old partner in crime is a comin over yay!! It will be fun beer pong, dancing as the night progresses and fun fun fun.. I have very little to say today just hello and I hope yall if any one at all are doing great cause we are and it feels soooooo good!

Peace, love y’all!

A shiny red one, perfect for pie!

Gina — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 01:10:44 +0000

Ok SO I’m back today, I am so bored took the new pup to the vet and thats about it. Cleaned my awesome house as usual, I say awesome cause it’s mine and we should all be proud of what we acomplish. I decided to start taking classes online cause I really don’t like driving into San Diego everyday it hurts my back and traffic is so ridiculous. I sold my Epedition for an Acura TL, nice car but I want my truck back… It was my baby, I whined slightly and was told that we could get a new one so yay… I know I am blessed to be able to buy the things I want and it hasn’t been that way for a long time so I suppose I am aloud to bragg a little.. I miss my girlies alot they are with family this week as said in the last short meaningless post, oh and don’t worry there will be more where that came from..

Today was a short day and what the hell happened to the sun? Normally I don’t like the sun, but I was just about to wash Betty (Acura) when I walked out of Navy Fed and noticed it looks like rain, I’d forgotten how much the weather changes when you live like 8 minutes from the water. So I will not be doing that I suppose, I guess stopping by to write down my thoughts is a better idea. Funny thing happened this 6 am when Clarence called to say good morning, I realized I was completely and totally satisfied with our life I didn’t ask myself or God for that matter any sort of questions, unusual if you ask me but still a good thing.. I know that sounds bad, like why the hell would I be asking questions as if I wasn’t happy or satisfied but I think we all do it from time to time. Sometimes shit just doesn’t make sense… But today it did, ha ha! I shout It’s been this way for sometime.. And you thought today was the first day, nope I am just thankful for everyday I wake up happy.

Last weekend we had a really fun party, all of our friends came over for ribs mmmmmmmm and we played some beer pong you know the usual, no kids around so I figure eehh what the hell let loose, I am the beer pong master and loves to whoop that ass! Any way we got our taxes back a nice chunk, paid a few loans and bought a new 50′ LCD it’s awesome now I can see all the anatomy from 6 to 9 pm on life time.. I am seriously considering medical school to become a coroner, not just a medical examiner but the big boss. Medical science is very important to me and I am seriously interested in knowing and learning why things happen to you when you die, weird I know but not really cause if it werent for weirdos like me who would do it?? I also would like to have a hair dressing license for shits and giggles that way if I get bored I will be a Nurse, A hair Dresser annnnd a Coroner. So many aspirations so little time……. .. … . I also only have about 10 years til I was to be at my covered in Tattoos goal… Sigh thats going slow, no time I suppose.

I don’t have alot to say but I do, I am not sure it is relevant atm so I will end with this

Simple minds talk about people.

Average minds talk about places.

Great minds talk about ideas.

The only person (or in some cases people) that can affect, change or ruin your life is YOU! Love ya’ll thatnks for reading.

Gina — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 21:34:48 +0000

So… I don’t write much, I don’t have time I suppose going back to school raising two kids, girls none the less and being a good wife takes alot of time and energy and so I am here writing cause my kids are with family for the week and my Marine is in the field. I reall don’t have alot to say my sister had a boy who I named Tristtin I love that name… We got a new house with only one story so it’s much easier for my crippled ass to get my stuff done.

My oldest child just had her 9th birthday it’s crazy to think about but that doesn’t stop it from happening. I am back in college earning my degree I will be a medical examiner some day. I am very excited. Recently I was invited to go to a friends baby shower in my old stomping ground I did not attend for one cause my husband really didn’t want to go and b: I wasn’t really excited about being in Hemet at all, I was there for an orthopedic surgery consult a few weeks ago that was enough for me. I miss My friend and her husband and even a few others but I really just can’t be a part of that any more.

In other news I am happily married and things are really good I am not working but still hae income and going to school since I can sit and stand as needed it is permitted by the Doc. So that works out. The Marine Corps life is the same as life with out it in alot of ways, besides the feld opps and deployment oh and cammies it’s the same. We just get to hear the ringing of the machine guns in the am and the brilliant sound of the Howitzer comin for that ass every night… The Marine Corps is a wonderful place for family they treat us very well so my husband says that makes up for his suffering he sometimes has to endure. We are getting ready to re-locate to Hawai’i My husband who hates the beach says he wants to go to Scuba and Jump school so f it, I’m down! I have friends who used to own a Tattoo shop I worked for years ago who own a new shop in the same place we are going so I may do that again for a while til I graduate, ought to be fun. I have been playing alot of UFC on the ol ps3… Well not alot but when I can it’s fun…

So any way enough of my boring life here on Pendleton.. I suppose I will write when there is more to say.

Since I have moved along nicely

Gina — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 17:05:40 +0000

I never wanted things to go the way they did, I always thought my life with myex would evolve into something anazing, it was something amazing. All the wierd furniture in our live was polished with the gentile hand of our love for each other, Our front door was the barrier from the outside filth of the world, until one day Erika knocked on it and he answered. I tried to let the way I felt for him over come my grief and the thought that spomehow it was my fault, somehow I had to have let this happen. Somehow I could have stoped it.. But the truth is, it’s a pattern like alcoholisim or drug use, once you get into a comfortable place you don’t ant to leave, even if it means chaos! I never really got a chance to say all the things I wanted to or explain why I ebruptly ended our relation ship. I loved him beyond my wildest dreams, never knew I could love another person besides my girls like that… So why did I let it end.. I let it end because it was just time. Our love was amazing but it had come to a wall and I am not sure either one of us saw a way over it. So he did what he did and I untied the knot.

Now I know it was for a good reason, now I know that it was because there was something better for me, something that I had never expected and never knew exsisted… Although I thought I would never love anyone as much as I loved George I know now that me loving him that much helped me to realize that I could love more and it was unstopable. I met my husband and he put me somewhere I’ve never been. And going through the shit I did with george for three years matured me and prepared me for things I never thought I could deal with. Being the wife of a Marine is the hardest job on top of being a mommy.. And I just want to thank George for helping me to realize that I deserve better and I can handle anything… I will survive and I will do it with a smile onmy face.

The ideas keep coming

Gina — Thu, 29 Nov 2007 06:20:26 +0000

And I have a good one. If you don’t want to see the truth about your self then don’t read my blogs. I can say what I want to. But apparently the truth hurts. Sorry.

Disaibility, Birthdays and cell phone bills oh my!

Gina — Fri, 16 Nov 2007 01:50:20 +0000

So yeah I am now on disability and my work, the insurance co and the docs office ar really working my nerves. So I called a lawyer. Oh well guess you should have thought of that before hu?

My ex’s girlfriend still hasn’t payed her cell phone bill putting me behind, and now he tells me that he wouldn’t have given her a cell phone even tho they are dating?!?!? Curious as to why.. hmm not now. Yesterday was George’s birthday and we are broke because of the stupid shit going on so you can see where that went. And my stupid back is messed up. but on the brighter side of things I am alive my man and my kids are healthy so I guess I can’t complain too much. I am so blah today. George finally started his vacation so he’s happy besides being broke. I told him today that we usually have the cash to do whatever so it’s not so bad. He seemed to agree. My ex still owes me child support and he says he will pay but we will see. I am not so mad at him cause he is struggling too I suppose. Ant way we had a nice dinner at G’s mom’s house last night, And I found this web site for every one it’s called skin deep it tells you ratings on a scale of 0 to 10 of make up and other products we use on our bodies every day, cg got a bad rating on most of it’s products, so I threw them away. Anyway that’s all for today so have a good one… Thanks for reading.

The nats are on the inside

Gina — Sat, 27 Oct 2007 22:01:51 +0000

Let me just start by saying that people call other people names when they are angry and don’t know what else to do, I have a very strong opinion when it comes to allot of things, especially my kids. And when some one thinks that they can take that away from me or my kids it’s on. so I must say that I am sorry if I offended you in any way but I am not sorry that I have my opinion or that I said what I said. The truth is the truth and sometimes it hurts.

On to better news George and I went to a Halloween party last night it was allot of fun, we went as Al and Peggy Bundy, and we were the most original there, with the exception of the outlet and the plug. Any way they had some good beer on tap and I danced allot I love to dance, plus I got George to go out there with me which is weird cause he doesn’t like to dance, but he actually wasn’t bad. I don’t have much to say I really want to go play e. q. so thanks for reading.

The rotten ones are always the prettiest on one side.

Gina — Thu, 25 Oct 2007 02:43:52 +0000

I am so lost on what to do about my daughters dad’s girlfriend. She thinks she actually has a say in what me and my ex- husband do with our kids, she actually thinks it’s alright to stand there and tell me what to do! Ahahahaha aha ahahahahahahhahaha hahaha! is all I can do, you can’t beat people up any more you’ll go to jail. Fortunately I am Headed back to court in a few months, my ex-husband and I came to an agreement so that’s fine but there are still some underlying issues that need to be addressed, this being one of them. I was over there waiting for her to pay me for her cell phone bill and she was procrastonating as usual, she treated everybody like crap and then proceeded to tell my six year old daughter that she would be popular because she would buy nice things for her. Now hold up a fucking minute, first of all who the fuck are you? and since when do real friends come from having nice clothes? She swears that she had this great upbringing where she had everything, well let me see 19 with 2 kids one of which does not behave an alcoholic father and a bossy, nosey stuck up bitch for a mom who if she really cared for her daughter would have stopped her from dating a 34 year old man when she was 16. I am not saying I am any better by all means, but I also don’t go around bragging about things that aren’t worth bragging about. Like, and I quote ” you’re just jealous that you weren’t a cheerleader in high-school” she says this to my ex- husband, OK for one you didn’t even got to high school for longer than one year maybe half of another at least he finished school and never dropped out to have kids and play house. I can’t believe some of the things that come out of her mouth some times, like that my girls were hers or that they love her more only a immature, self centered, abused, angry teenager would say such a horrible thing right? not according to her, she had all the best, but she has lived in Beaumont all her life. I am very confused.

Just in case you were wondering I have tried to be friends with this girl many, many times. She makes it almost unbearable most of the time.

I really don’t like to talk about people allot but I CAN’T TAKE ANY MORE!!! She wants my kids to be spoiled little wanna-be rich bitches like her, and I am sorry but last time I checked I am their mother and Ray is their father so why is it that I have to answer to her? I guess I don’t do I?! so I’m going to tell the judge everything she has said pertaining to my children being her property and telling me what to do when it comes to them, like “when there at my house I can do what I want!” Oh no you can’t! Those are my little girls, and no fat ass-ed teenager is going to tell me shit, I realize that she has done allot for those girls, but I have thanked her and their father has thanked her with two kids. So from now on it’s my game and I have to pick you for the team. I know you’ll probably read this and have some witty comeback but seriously, you need to stop and take a breath, and step the fuck back, you have two kids that need you. my girls have two parents that love and can take care of them just fine with out your input.

Anyway I have been off work for a few days because of my fucked up back, I hate back injuries… They suck. George and I are going to a Halloween party on sat or fri I can’t remember I hope our costumes are a hit!!! fun, fun, fun!!!

I think the green ones are sour….

Gina — Fri, 19 Oct 2007 04:50:29 +0000

I really like this song, I think it helped me to bring closure to alot of fucked people leaving my life. So here are the lyrics. Of course I didn’t think they were fucked up at the time, only for leaving. Selfish I thought. But in all reality I was the one being selfish. They had their chance while they were around, it was my turn damnit!…. You see where it got me. Nothing but a broken heart and alot of coming to grips with reality. Now life is great but they say therapy and not suppressing your thoughts or feelings in any way, shape or form is the best thing you can do for your self. And for some reason I just started thinking about everybody. Mostly this song reminds me of an ex-man I had who I loved very much, the good thing in the end is he helped me to realize that I had it in me to love and now I love like tomorrow is my last day here………….Thanks.

I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don’t loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I found out I can’t make it go away, just make it stop
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How could you did this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you, for you, for you, for you…