I never wanted things to go the way they did, I always thought my life with myex would evolve into something anazing, it was something amazing. All the wierd furniture in our live was polished with the gentile hand of our love for each other, Our front door was the barrier from the outside filth of the world, until one day Erika knocked on it and he answered. I tried to let the way I felt for him over come my grief and the thought that spomehow it was my fault, somehow I had to have let this happen. Somehow I could have stoped it.. But the truth is, it’s a pattern like alcoholisim or drug use, once you get into a comfortable place you don’t ant to leave, even if it means chaos! I never really got a chance to say all the things I wanted to or explain why I ebruptly ended our relation ship. I loved him beyond my wildest dreams, never knew I could love another person besides my girls like that… So why did I let it end.. I let it end because it was just time. Our love was amazing but it had come to a wall and I am not sure either one of us saw a way over it. So he did what he did and I untied the knot.
Now I know it was for a good reason, now I know that it was because there was something better for me, something that I had never expected and never knew exsisted… Although I thought I would never love anyone as much as I loved George I know now that me loving him that much helped me to realize that I could love more and it was unstopable. I met my husband and he put me somewhere I’ve never been. And going through the shit I did with george for three years matured me and prepared me for things I never thought I could deal with. Being the wife of a Marine is the hardest job on top of being a mommy.. And I just want to thank George for helping me to realize that I deserve better and I can handle anything… I will survive and I will do it with a smile onmy face.
