I think the green ones are sour….

I really like this song, I think it helped me to bring closure to alot of fucked people leaving my life. So here are the lyrics. Of course I didn’t think they were fucked up at the time, only for leaving. Selfish I thought. But in all reality I was the one being selfish. They had their chance while they were around, it was my turn damnit!…. You see where it got me. Nothing but a broken heart and alot of coming to grips with reality. Now life is great but they say therapy and not suppressing your thoughts or feelings in any way, shape or form is the best thing you can do for your self. And for some reason I just started thinking about everybody. Mostly this song reminds me of an ex-man I had who I loved very much, the good thing in the end is he helped me to realize that I had it in me to love and now I love like tomorrow is my last day here………….Thanks.

I have to block out thoughts of you, so i don’t loose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted this

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months, it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinoins on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I’ll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swollow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you

And when the sad hard eyes say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I found out I can’t make it go away, just make it stop
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How could you did this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me and wait, yeah wait for it to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you, for you, for you, for you…