Back to the orchard…

For crying out loud I wonder how many of these silly, clever and somehow stupid titles I can come up with. Anyhow I am so Tired today but it’s ok cause I still have the man of my dreams, I am always in pain or tired from working but it doesn’t seem to hurt or make my eyes as heavy when he’s around. And as lame and cheesy as that sounds, it’s true. I am not saying he completes me I was already me but he does make my life alot more pleasant. My children Lily and Ivy came to work with me today they are so well behaved and I can’t believe how smart they are. I am so proud of them both, they sat and watched tv then they put on their gloves and hair nets and helped me serve the seniors their dinner, so f-ing cute. I really am a blessed person.

I had a rough day at first today, I went to my physical therapist today and he could tell so he did alittle heat on my injury an let me go early. I was a mess, and it showed. Things got a little better later and seem to be going back up hill again. (getting ready to go back down I suppose…) maybe, maybe not. I Love my job alot, alot of people want me to go back to the casino, but I don’t know that I want to. It’s good money but I’m not sure.  George and I decided some things last night, he seemed to have a problem with me at first but then we fixed it. we’re smart like that. I wonder if you get an award for putting up with your man’s shit for 50 plus years at the end??? I hope so, oh wait it must be getting the man you have always wanted or something.. ha ha ha j/k it’s all worth it in the end.

 some words I thought up….

We entered this life as two and became one.

We live this life as one and some how became two.

Where has my friend gone? Wait! no, he was here…… 

My most special friend.

I can hear your voice…. It’s fading away.

 I feel like my soul is lost.

My heat is breaking, wait come back! Please don’t leave!

Please wake me up! this has got to be a dream.

I’m crying so hard, just make it go away.

Please bring a smile back and make things the way they used to be.

Your hands feel warm on my face. Your smile is a clear photo in my mind.

You are here. And I can feel you, like the first time we met.

It was a dream. I feel so happy and safe.

Yes, this is us! this is what I miss.

My dearest friend. My love. My only one.

 That is the weirdest shit I have ever done, my lame attempt to put my thoughts in a poem or something to express my feelings in a way that doesn’t sound bitchy. Now it might seem psycho… Great, I can never win, any way I really needed to try something new.

please feel free to comment and tell me what I could have done different. I am definately one of those people that has alot of emotion and can’t always say it in ways people can understand. so thanks and take it easy…