Ripe for the picking

I am so proud of my self I am finally learning to juggle a new family the way it should be… At least in my mind. The only thing about that is that good things always have a bomb just waiting to go off, so now that that is good something else is bound to go wrong. It’s hard to go from one husband to another, same kids but new husband and they really aren’t the same because they have a new step mom to try and change the things they were born with, I think she actual thinks she is really their mother, like she gave birth to them. I can understand and somewhat appreciate this but some how it seems like it might  be a a little Un healthy. I was very excited about this coming December because that’s when we were to move back in with George’s awesome friend and the best roommate ever, but his new or semi new girl friend decided that she doesn’t want roommates, that really sucks especially because George and I wanted to get a big house with a nice yard for our kids and their kid, also to use the yard to get married in, my dream is no longer going to be my reality thanks to one person….. Thanks again, good looking out. The unfortunate thing about me is I have a hard time forgiving someone when they say they will do something and then back out at the last moment. I mean I guess there’s always the phrase “fuck em” Right??? Except now I will be the bad guy for saying the f word followed by you, even though I think it is quite justified. Anyway something else will happen and I will survive. Who knows maybe her kid is a brat or she’s dirty and embarrassed, or maybe she is just a bitch… or maybe she just really doesn’t want roommates. Whatever the reason I am sure it a good one and I am also sure that I will get some dirty looks for this post. O n to more important things George and I have decided to stop drinking, one at our wedding is OK but no keg or drinks allowed. That’s probably going to make everyone leave early but hey like I said earlier “fuck em!” I have realized that there is nothing wrong with drinking, but when you can’t pace your self or black out it is no longer ok or fun, we go out have what is supposed to be fun, the next day all we have to show is an empty wallet, a hangover and George usually not remembering what the hell happened. I personally have been waiting to hear him say the words “I think straight edge is starting to sound good” for a long time. Drugs are lame and for losers and alcohol is starting to seem the same way. If you can’t just have one or two at the most, you have a problem. We are both headed to alcoholism, which runs in both of our families and I am not going to live in a marriage like that, so this is a good start for both of us to be sober. We don’t drink alot  but when we do it… we DO IT!!! Once a month or maybe twice on a Friday or Saturday we go nuts, not the life I really want any more. All we need now is to quit smoking and start exercising and we will be set. George and I are set to be married soon, I am way excited!!! I also am excited about the fact that my ex-husband did not show up for mediation today, bad, bad, bad. Now if he shows up for court they will have to set a new date for mediation and go on from there but if he doesn’t show then maybe I get what I want. yay, my kids deserve better and I can give it to them. Any way I am going to go cleaning now, the girls tore up the house today, so I am off… See ya.